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Mind and Heart

When I was a kid, I do have a bigger mind and a smaller heart.
I was fearless, I think big and dream big, I have no worries, and I have the 'can do' attitude. I was not always happy, I cried and upset about many little things, but I always have positive mind towards anything.
I love my family, myself, my comic books, I don't have too many attachments and I don't love easily.

Now that I am a grown adult, I realised that I have a smaller mind and a bigger heart.
I became so much pessimistic, skeptical, critical and judgemental. I got a lot of fear, I got anxious often, uncertainties worries me, things or people that do not do according to my ideal are irritating me, and my 'can do' attitude is keep diminishing by age.
But I become to love people and things easily, I forgive people easily, I become more considerate and understanding person, I have too many attachments and I have so many wants in my life. I have lots of curiosity on people minds, their cultures, and how their surroundings have shaped them.

I do wish I can have both, a bigger mind and a bigger heart. But the more I live in this world, the more I think that there is no hope for the human race. My heart is aching by the more I know about the world and it's people. It's kinda impossible to have a bigger mind when you start to read the news, listen to people, writing about the current affair, and talking about our fellow human. That's why sometimes people say ignorance is a bliss, ignorance is an act to protect your mind and heart. But I rather have a smaller mind than being an ignorant, I rather having my heart broken than turning a blind eye on something or someone else.

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